I wrote out a full blog post dedicated to saying goodbye to Sayed…but I actually think I’m going to keep all of the experiences and memories of that day private. There might be a day when I share details, but for now I’m going to hold them a bit closer.
I will say this, though:
Now that we have social media in our lives, grief can be so very public. There are a million ways to walk through it, and I would never ever shame anyone for the way they choose to process their emotions. I’ve seen it done in so many ways, from completely transforming an account into a place for memories and emotions, to completely shutting down a blog or account for an entire year to process in private. I think I’ll be somewhere between those two, because I really love having this creative outlet as a source of joy in my life. But I also know I’ll keep talking about Sayed, sharing videos and photos with my boys, and saying his name often. I’m not sure how much of that will be done publicly on my blog and social, or just privately in my home. Please know and respect that everything I choose to do is the healthiest way for me to handle it for myself and my family.
We love and miss you forever, Sayed.